Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Choking Back Tears

It's officially begun. The dreaded goodbyes. The part I've purposely been pushing from my mind for weeks now is quickly becoming unavoidable and I'm sad.

Yesterday, some of my co-workers took me out for a "farewell" lunch. There were thoughtful gifts and kind sentiments from a pretty wonderful group of people and I couldn't help but get choked up. I'm so gonna miss these folks, the ones who were able to make it and those who couldn't. For the last three years I've had the privilege of working with people who are so gifted in what they each do. I have so much respect and admiration for each and every one of them.

Then today I met with someone I usually only deal with through email, though occassionally face-to-face. She hugged me before she left and wished me well and told me I would be missed. I'll miss her too.

Next week will be the worst. It's my last week and even as I type that, I'm choking back tears - unsuccessfully, I might add. I've loved everything about working for my church, from the people I work with and for, to those involved in the ministries I help serve. I wasn't wanting to go back to work three years ago and I hated the events that made it necessary but I couldn't be more thankful that God opened that door and shoved me through it. It's been one of the best experiences of my life and a big part of me truly wishes it wasn't coming to an end.

Oh, here we go again. Where are the tissues...

Be blessed.


elaine @ peace for the journey said...

Wow, Melanie. Been reading your last several posts. Gracious, you certainly have a lot of "stuff" going on right now. I'm not sure why you are moving, but believe me when I tell you that I understand the "grief" that comes with saying good-byes. As a clergy family, we've had to do it more times than I care to count.

And as for your recent medical trials, I'm so thankful for the positive results.

May God continue to guide, direct, and strengthen you as you pitch your tent in new territory with a certain and sure faith. God is good, friend.


Melanie said...

He is, indeed, Elaine. A friend asked me the other day if it's been this sad with each move. Ummm, yes. Yes, it has.